So Tired....

I'm so tired, both emotionally and physically I don't even know where to start.
My baby, CR passed away on July 24th 2010.



He was the sweetest dog ever. But I didn't really look at him as a dog, more like my infant. He was three years old and didn't have a care in the world. I think the thing that hurts the most is how suddenly he passed. He was there, happy and playful then poof! he was gone. I finally feel like I am getting some normalcy back, but for the first few weeks I was in a daze. I know I went through the grieving stages. But for some reason I always end up back at anger. I'm angry at God. Sometimes he seems so cruel. How could he bring such a wonderful being into my life just to take him away!?!? I would have done anything for that dog, he gave me a purpose.

"I miss you so much. Your light, your smile, your way and everything about us. Though your gone your still here, in my heart, in my tears. Yeah you sure left your mark, we were just getting started. It wasn't long enough together, but it was long enough to last forever." These are lyrics from the song Forever by Rascal Flatts. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about CR. He will forever be in my memories and my love for him while never go away.

I love you baby boy! :*

Off to a great start!

I never thought when I started this journey that things would get going so fast. Last Thursday I set up an appointment to meet with the people at Aveda. Now, not even a week later, I have been accepted and I start July 28Th! I am so excited! I am enrolled in the cosmetology program. It is a 16-month program with a 3-day school week. They also offer a makeup artistry program, but it is only a week long and its only offered at certain times. I totally plan on enrolling in that program when the time comes, that is the whole reason I started on this journey. I am going to update this blog as much as possible.